My truly identity

What do you think of me? Absolutely, there are some statements that people will say about me. They are free and I don’t have a right to forbid them to speak and give their opinion or just give their judgments to me. But, sometimes I realized that what people said doesn’t reflect on my truly personal identity. It is such a misunderstanding on my behave and as a human, I just try to tolerance with that and try to understand that it’s all about what others see to me and it makes me different with others.

When I was child, I was still confused with my personal identity. When people asked me to describe who I am, I was still confused to answer the question. I just said what my parents often said to me that “my name is Himmatul ‘aliyah , I’m muslim and I’m Javanese”. That was the point. And because I lived in Java and also as a Javanese, I had to speak in bahasa jawa to show my identity. As known that there are 2 java language levels. Jawa ngoko and jawa karma. It is quite difficult to me if I have to use the rules of both language levels. Fortunately, I live in the era of Indonesia’s independence which requires people to live in democracy and not feudal again. So that my parents let me to use the language level which is comfortable for me and still polite if it is used in public.

Then, it was the time I go to school. My identity was growth and changed as time as goes by. I have learned that I live in Indonesia and just realized that java is located in Indonesia. And absolutely, because the motto of this country is “Bhinneka Tunggal Ika”, as a citizen of Indonesia, no matter with our religion, culture and the ethnicity, we are taught to unite it the name of nation, namely Indonesia. But in fact, it was a just a motto and no impact on some people. I saw that the religious identity was the most powerful in living in society even in everywhere. Sometimes I asked my heart why religion makes people is treated unfairly? Why does religion make people put the bulkhead and the society is left to form their own group? Then, I decided to love my nation in my own way. I still do love Indonesia although it is not entirely related with my expectation. And now, I decided to love in peace, no fight and have a tolerant attitude in dealing with the other cultures and religions.

I’m very grateful to live among the people who respect and uphold the diversity. I like the way those who think that the diversity is not an obstacle to make the life of prosperous, safe and peaceful based on goals of nation. Now, I have found my truly personal identity and I feel comfortable with that. And I’ve already if people asked question to me about “who I am”. I will say that I am Himmatul ‘Aliyah, the person without any community identity, always uphold with the diversity and obedient to God. I just looked at every human being as a human being with a human identity as God’s creation without religious boundaries, ethnic or national boundaries. I suppose that all people have the same position with me. I really respect with them and hopefully they will do the same to me :)

That’s all my reflection of my personal identity. How about you?